Tuesday, November 09, 2004

Vacation time!

Today I embark on a 5 day journey with nine teenagers, three other staff members and a driver. We will be camping two nights on a beautiful beach, then spending two days in Santo Domingo. First of all I am very excited to go, God has been blessing this trip by allowing all the details to simply fall together in one wonderful trip! The planning has been much work but a good experience. I feel as if my life has been fast-forwarded 15 years or so, planning the family trip. But I never thought I'd be be doing it for a group of nine troubled teens--Ahhh!!!!

Lord bless us and give us strength as we travel together on this journey, may this time open the hearts of each and every one of the guys, growing them closer to you. Pray that staff remain patient and loving as 5 days solid with these guys can be *very* draining. Lord I lift this trip up to you, may you always remain the center of it, in our hearts, our speech, and our actions.

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

Where do we find our comfort?

I recently started a diet. Not necessarily for weight loss although I could stand to lose 5 pounds, but to cut back on the things I have found comfort in and begin leaning on God for my peace. I am not a firm believer in diets for long term weight loss, but the psychological impact of cutting back food is amazing! A friend is doing this with me and we have both noticed increased levels of irritability, short tempers and feeling anxious. Not to mention the people around us have noticed these changes as well.

It was interesting that I would read Psalm 40 as a devotion for the guys last night. With so many changes in my life, and upcoming events I constantly feel overwhelmed. Sadly through it all I have not been leaning on God much, but trying to make a go of it on my own, and the pressure is increasing. I would encourage you all to read Psalm 40 in your bible, or at http://www.crosswalk.com.

Please pray that I continue to let God be the ruler of my life, and continually give to him the earthly things I cling to instead of resting in him. These areas include: food, computers, reading, pride and self-reliance. I have many great desires in my heart for earthly possessions like a bike, new laptop, etc., but I continue to look away from God for my happiness. Pray that my soul finds rest in him alone.

I will leave you with a quote from Psalm 40:
11 You, O LORD, will not withhold Your compassion from me; Your lovingkindness and Your truth will continually preserve me. 12 For evils beyond number have surrounded me; My iniquities have overtaken me, so that I am not able to see; They are more numerous than the hairs of my head, And my heart has failed me. 13 Be pleased, O LORD, to deliver me; Make haste, O LORD, to help me.